Do I...?

So...it's probably not a good idea/appropriate if I said "hey...I think I might love you. I might wanna try this again. For real this time." That/this would come off out of the blue...probably. But what do you think would happen after having one of your best girlfriends basically punch this out of you. I mean it's not like you haven't been having these thoughts in your head for weeks already! Maybe even months! Like what the fuck are you suppose to do? I already feel like I'm wasting my time/youth. Why not just go for it? Just fucking. Go. For. It. Like honestly. We never really gave it a shot before. First time around you were ready/able to fully commit. And second time around I was still hurt and carrying a whoollle lot of baggage from the first time. So now what? I may be ready. Or as ready as I may be and you? I don't know. But now do I find out unless I just fucking go for it. Just go for it. Cause I don't know what love is yet. I may never know until I try. And that is potentially where you come in. Right? Ugh. I don't fucking know. All I know is I think about you. I wanna talk to you and I want you in my life always. I don't want you ever to not be in my life. Or a regret, in that we never really have it a fucking full shot. God dang it.