i miss you

I miss you. a lot. i wish you were still in my life. I wish things were different then how they are presently, how you are absent from my life currently. Its sad of me to say but i'm hoping you contact me on my birthday. I miss hearing your voice. I miss talking to you, having you in my life. I just miss you and it makes me incredibly sad. I miss cuddling with you, your kisses, holding you hand...jsut everything. I miss that feeling that i knew i had someone in my life, at least one person who was special and i could turn to for evrything. i miss that. I miss you.....and im wondering if you miss me too. I still have that small hope in my that you'll be back, you'll realize this was all a mistake and that you'd rather have me in your life as i was, instead of how i am now, non-exisitant. though that may not be good for me to ahve this false hope..but none the less i still have it. ugh i should go to sleep before this tipsy feeling goes away...i can already feel it starting to dissipate....alright bed. before i cant go to sleep once again because thoughts keep flooding back to you and wishing you were still in my life. ugh i miss you..and talking to you..just having you in my life. why did this have to happen this way? why did tihngs ahve to end the way it did? i could have held on and waited for you to be ready, i wasn't pressuring you for a relationship...but you decided to end things anyway. i have so many unanswered quesitons left....why did it have to end this way?