Monday, November 9, 2009

Making the decision and stop being stubborn

I'm having trouble finding lyrics today to express how I feel, but I can express my feelings without the lyrics.
I'm stubborn. I'll make the first move every now and then, however once I get tired of doing that, I wont budge, and I won't be the one making that move. Making the first move and being the one to step up works sometimes, you get the job done and its beneficial. However when I feel like I'm the only one making the effort, I would want the other person to make the effort as well, its going to be no doubt that I'll get tired making the first move. Is it not right for me to assume that the person who states that the relationship is something of substance and meaning to make the effort as well to keep it like that? Or is it usual for that person to drop the relationship at a drop of the hat and not make the effort...because that's the type of person they are.
It's confusing and tiring to keep my composure lately. To be nonchalant and act as though I'm not affected by the lack of communication we now have or better said, lack of friendship, lack of substance. It's hard to go back and forth of whether just dropping the friendship, and acting as you are by just being acquaintances which is how it seems nowadays, or by putting in the effort that you are obviously not doing to hold on. Is the even a point anymore? Am I looking to much into this all? I'm doubting it, because there's a definite shift in our relationship. I can't be the only one that notices. I guess I can be the only one that cares though.

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