First Post

I've been wanting to start a blog for a while now. An outlet for myself, something for me to express myself, get my feelings out into the universe. I'm the type of person to keep things to myself most of time but I'm always trying to find a way to somehow get my messages across. There's time where you just want to keep your feelings to yourself, but you know its better to get things out. That's where I'm at. There's the options of 'updating' my 'facebook status' of course, or even resorting to Twitter. However, don't you wish sometimes that you just want to say what's on your mind, but somehow decode it in a way? So the person your trying to get the message out to, doesn't exactly know that you're talking about them, that your 'facebook status' is just a general thing? This all may sound confusing, me wanting to get my message out to a specific person, but not really wanting that person to realize it. Well, maybe I just wish that person would figure it out themselves.
Lately i've been dealing with friends, boys, and all the in between. Dynamics in my once thought 'tight-knit' group have been thrown into a loop and things have become somewhat disheveled. It seems like, to me, that i've lost one of my best friends, and I can't turn to my other best friend because shes involved. It's all been one big Dawson's Creek-like debacle. Which in-turns to the reason of going ahead and starting my blog.
Sometimes you wish you can write down exactly what you want to say, but you find that words have failed you. You can't adequately say what you want to say, you can't express what you're really feeling. Then, you find a song, listen to the lyrics, then Bam, the artist singing has just sung the words that you are feeling at that exact time. It's like this song was a song you would have wrote, if you could write songs. This artist is speaking to you, knowing exactly how you felt at this moment. I'm sure it has happen to everyone in the world at least once. That's why people love music, and relate to artists and have favorite musicians. There has definitely been times where a song comes on the radio, whether it's Ne-yo or Kelly Clarkson, the lyrics get you. That's why songs get stuck in your head, or why girls tend to blast some Kelly Clarkson when they're going through a rough patch. I've done it before, Kelly Clarkson got me through a lot of stuff a couple years back. Now, lately its been Taylor Swift. I'm sure some people roll their eyes when that name gets mention, hell I've done it too. Ask me just a few weeks ago and I'll scoff at the name Taylor Swift, but I do have to give her credit now. As cheesy as her lyrics can be, or how sugar candy sweet she appears to be, when your down because your having boy troubles, this girl can help make you feel better. She did for me. The lyrics in her songs, yes plural, have had such an affect on me that I created this blog! As cheesy as it is to say that I can relate to the lyrics in her song, I can. It's a universal girl thing. So heres a few lyrics from some Taylor Swift songs that can describe the position I'm in now.

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
(Died for you)

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

-Cold As You, Taylor Swift